Peach Sweater Dress

9.19.2018

Hello!

9.10.2018


Hi guys! Can't believe it's been so long since I've posted. July 18th to be exact. A few things have happened since then. As most of you know I was recovering from a Hysteroscopy surgery that I had back June. This surgery was to remove a large fibroid that I had in the cavity of my uterus which was preventing pregnancy and affecting my quality of life. The surgery was a kind of a success. My doctor was able to get 90% of it out, the everyday heavy bleeding has stopped, I don't feel as fatigued and I was able to stop taking all these damn hormones that had my body and skin really messed up. So that's the bright side.

The downside of it all is that I have to get surgery, again. This time a Myomectomy, which I am extremely worried about.  This procedure will have to be done to remove the rest of the fibroid that couldn't be removed vaginally. A small incision will be made on my lower abdomen, it'll be like a c-section. This absolutely terrifies me, but unfortunately it has to be done. 

A few weeks ago after my Hysteroscopy, I went for my follow up and it turned out the 10% of fibroid that was left was still preventing me from getting pregnant. My uterus is pretty much distorted. I could barely hold back my tears. This has been such a struggle and now the fact that I have to go through major surgery really messes me up. 

I've been told that recovery will be tough and I worry about that so much. I am putting all my faith and trust in my God, but I can't help to feel scared. Have any of you gone through this procedure? Please share your experience with me through Instagram. I would love to hear how recovery was for you.

(these photos were taken in late July. hope you guys like!)


GREEN TUBE TOP

7.18.2018

Wearing: Forever 21 tube top (similar tube tops) | Rag & Bone jeans | Bronzallure earrings (similar earrings here) | old Zara sandals

DAY BY DAY

7.17.2018


 These photos were taken on July 3rd, but I am just now getting a chance to post. My anxiety has been through the roof and I just want to feel better already. I hope someday to be able to open up to you guys about everything I have been going through, but I will tell you it hasn't been easy. As of now I am just fighting. Fighting every single day to feel fulfilled, healthy and happy. Though I love the outfits and photos that I post, sometimes I don't post them right away because it reminds me of what I went through that day and I try my best to avoid it and block it so my anxiety doesn't escalate.

I am taking it day by day and praying that some day I will be the Delmy I was once before.
And on that note I hope you are having a beautiful day, full of love and laughter.

XOD


 

LOVE WRAP SLIP DRESS

7.10.2018

Wearing: Free People dress | Zara sandals (old)

BLUE CHAMBRAY DRESS

7.02.2018


It's been 6 days since surgery and I've been having some on and off days. On day 3 I actually felt a bit better, so I started to move around a bit. Well, I should've never done that. The day after I woke up with a lot of pain and heavier bleeding. Today I am still in pain and moving slowly. I am so anxious to feel better so I can clean my house. It's driving me crazy! I also want to enjoy this weather at the beach! But I am trying to stay positive and be grateful for the fact that my surgery went well and that hopefully soon I will start feeling like my old self again. 

I believe these photos were shot a day before my surgery. I was feeling so down, nervous, and so scared. I kept thinking about a nightmare I had the night before, so I wanted to get dolled up and get  out the house, because I didn't know what was going to be ahead of me. But here I am and I am grateful. 

Hope everyone is staying cool in this 3 digit degree weather!

@DELMYRIVERAM

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